Raw

It's incredibly hypocritical.

At least I think it is,

That I want nothing to do with you.

But you bring me heartache,

and stress, and pain.

Not because you love me THAT much,

it's because you don't.

Or you do, but I can't see it.

It hurts, the ones I am closest to try.

I look to forgive.

I look to the grey area to find some forgiveness.

But the hurt doesn't go away.

I can imagine that's how he feels.

But it's different.

I want to talk to you.

I want to know you. again.

I want to text, to write, to email.

But I can't.

Because I know better.

Please know better.